*Dramatic Sigh*
Okay, it’s time for a rant, I do not know how long this rant will be or where it may lead, I just know that there is something building up inside of me that needs to get out now before I take it out on even more people that I love.
Let’s make a start before it’s too late.
Item One
The typical teenage rant on how they feel. Here I go again.
I’ve currently missed Jim for God only knows how long. I haven’t been able to sleep and this has subsequently made me ill. I have been ill and therefore a little unhappy. I have been working my but off for 2 weeks, some of may not believe this, but yeah, my butt has been in gear. Two drama rehearsals which have driven me up the wall and round the equator added to my bad mood. Some of us put in time and effort to get these things right after making exceptions for others, the others let you down and are too up themselves to work as hard as they can.
Because I’ve been working hard whilst I’m ill, I thought it might be nice for someone to take care of me or acknowledge the fact that I’ve worked that hard and say well done. (No, I am not fishing for praise, so please, don’t feel obliged). So I invited Jim round today. (here comes the bitchy part for which I apologise in advance) I asked him to text his mum and ask before he got home because he had lost his drivers liscence and debit card and I thought he’d have moer of a chance coming over if they didn’t know that. But he asked them during dinner after his dad had gotten in a stress about the lost cards and I had been waiting for an answer all day, my mum invited him to stay over o the condition I changed my bed, cleared the rubbish, helped put up the shelves and looked after the puppy for a while. All of which i did whilst awaiting an answer. And the answer was that he couldn’t. (Told you this was bitch y and I’m sorry, but I am NOT in the mood).
So I now feel let down very upset, very ill, very angry, very fucking pissed off because being let down is what my dad does to me. And that’s why me and my dad don’t have a fantastic relashonship and I don’t want mine and Jims relashonship to go that way.
I know it’s not his fault. but good god.
Good god.
So anyway, in traditional Caley terms or mannerisms or whatever it’s called (I’ve forgotten the word) I feel as if no one cares eough to jeapordise a small thing to come and take care of me, thats all I’m asking for, some one to take care of me, I’ve needed it all week, and I haven’t got it. Theres one more thing I’d love to say on here but I am not going to because it would hurt some feelings.
pretty much.
LOLFEST
Well, what can I say? Satuday the 7th of April has left me feeling queezy, happy, thrilled, with a headache and very very tired. What a brilliant night.
I hosted LOLFEST for following lovelies: Jim, Dodge, Hali, JD, Hopface, Amy, Louise, Giles, Mel, Lilly, Jo and Lucy. (a.k.a the crew).
The day startd nicely, I walked into town (looking un-intentionlay fabulous yet gothic might I add) and I walked over to the library where any fols walked into closed doors, not realising it’s easter weekend and the library is actualy closed. That provided me with much amusmant whilst I awaited the arrival of Mel, Amy and Lilly.
When they arrived we got a taxi back to my house where we sat and had a nice chat about all the places I’d done it in my house. They were disgusted and I was proud of myself.
Then Hopwood and Louie arrived and the party slowly started turning mental (timing wise that is). JD had a ‘hair dyelemma’ (notice the pun) whichactually wasn’t a dilemma atall, he looked gorgeous as always. This made him late as he was worrying and pondering over whether to get a taxi or walk to my house, but he eventually arrived, not too late =]
Alex Giles on the other hand is a COMPLETLEY different story. She told me she would be at my house for 4pm as she had to go meet with Angies family. This was totaly fine. 4.30pm came along, and I was thinking whether or not to ring her. I decided not to just yet.
(meanwhile, we were all playing Cranium)
Then 5pm rolled around and I decided it was time to ring. I fnally got throught o her mobile when she says: “Err, we’re just about to leave and then I need to go to Cambridge and get some stuff and then I’ll be there by like 8pm”. I was not amused. 4 hours late and she didn’t even TEXT! However, she arrived … eventualy ¬.¬ … and by this time so had Jim, Dodge, Hali and Lucy and all the alcohol.
The night was underway drinking all round, screaming the soundrack to ‘Wicked’ at the top of our lungs and squeezing who ever was in sight ^^
We were being you’re regular teenage parties, mixing and talking and laughing and singing and then Jim and me did it. Then we all played singstar.
I was incredible I’ll have everyone know, even for a wasted 16 year old with a sore throat =D After singstar me and Jim went back to sex.
Then Hali was throwing up a lot so Jim took care of him and put hi to bed with a towel and a bowl =]. Jim returned to me or more doing and lots of talk. We talked for about 3 hours about everything. I cried, I laughed, I kissed, I came 
Then I went down stairs for a time out, unfortunaltey not wearing any underwear to some peoples pleasure and to others pain ^^ It was a bit chilly mind you The downstairs lot were just talking and sleeping and so I went back upstars to catch some Z’s.
Awaking at 8am, me and Jim snuggled and probably had sex again lol.
I went downstairs and everyone was watching the comedy stylings of Dylan Moran (a comic Irish genius) laughing and jollyfor such an early time, people started sorting themelves out and one by one they all left =[
After Louise left, me and Jim were hoe alone, so guess what we did. After doing the deed, we slept and then I went downstairs to clean my house completley hovering and all (leaving th washing up until I had some help).
The night was brilliant and I’d like to thank everyone who attented for giving me one of the best nights of my life.
The final outcome of the party was that, I cut my finger, turned into the hulk about a smirnoff bottle in my dead dogs tree. Amy and Alex are no together, everyone was groped at some stage, I have love bites on my neck, scrapes on my knees washed up an entire cupboardful of mugs and glasses =D
Thanks again to you all.
x
