It’s so very surreal to think about it. 6.

I’m in a state of illness and nostalgia. I’ve spent 5 years of my life at the Floyd. And now it has come down to me having 6 days left there. I have so many regrets and so many memories.

I’m finding it so hard to let go.

College awaits me. If I get the grades. Which God knows I’m trying hard for.

But, all my friends wont be there. We won’t go to Tesco at lunch together anymore, we wont talk about what’s on our minds or have any more rehearsals together.

It makes me cry everytime I think about it. Even now.

Not seeing them in the morning. The people that mean the most and always will. The people that cheer me up when I’m the worst mood. The people that keep me going. The people that I love more than anything in the entire world. Wont be there.

The fact is they’ve always been there for me, whenever I need them. And, being so close but so far from them everyday is going to hurt.

I’m giving up a lot to go and do something I might not be good at. but I know I’m not good enough for sixth form. I’ve got no idea where I would be happier.

I used to have it all planned. But then I changed. Everything did. People left and I realised a few things, about the world and about me.things I never knew existed.

I’ve wasted so many years. So many feelings. So many thoughts and so many opportunities.

I apologise to a certain person, but I won’t ever be able to let go.

Maybe the distance will help that? Maybe it’ll get worse.

Whatever happens, I wish them all the best of luck in what they want to do.

They are all fantastic people, and I know they have so much ahead of them, and I know their stories will end in success.

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