Clear my head.
Yet again I just need to write some stuff down so I understand what’s going on.
Going with Jim for 2 weks when he moves on the 1st August, however mums plans may hinder that a tad. I’ll check it over when he gets back.
Swimming on Sunday. Probably 2pm.
Sound of Music, August 8th.
I’m sure there is more happening.
Argh I’m so confused, I need to know what’s happeniiiing *whines*
Across The Sky
I seem to be titling these blogs with song names or lyrics =] Ah well.
Again I have a little rant about myself (just to be a selfish little bitch) but guys, seriously, I need a break. Everyone is disappearing on holidays and I’m sorry, but I think I fucking deserve one. I haven’t been on holiday since last year and I haven’t got a single out of aylesbury weekend/week/or two planned ever. Nothing planned this year, nothing planned next year. My parents have had … 1/2 holidays in Cornwall this year, they’re going again in August and then they are going some place in October. Which leaves me by myself once looknig after the dog and once (not so much to my dis-pleasure) hosting a party =D.
Andy is in Zimbabwe until the 30th. Dodge got back from Croatia today. Louise went to Wales, and most importantly to me, Jim is in Spain, and he will be again later this year also after moving to Cambridge.
Everyone is having a great time going on breaks and holidays, whilst I am stuck here with the weight of the world on my shoulders sometimes and I WANT A BREAK!
I keep looking at weekend breaks away anywhere, they aren’t too pricey, but that just bringss up the fact that NOONE WILL EMPLOY ME! Which furthermore pisses me off royally.
So I beg of you, will anyone give me my well deserved break?
x
In light of sunny July.
It is July 
(for those who didn’t know), and I have been on many adventures ♥
I went to London on the 14th of July and went to Hyde Park for Londons biggest water fight, in which I got drenched and I’ve buggered up my arm by being the only one capapble of falling over as soon as it started =D.
The very same day I saw Wicked for the 2nd time, but this time with a different cast.
All was done in the company of Nick.
Before this date however I was royally screwed over by the Floyd on the night of the summer ball and came out of the whole photographizzle gig £100 richer, that is all.
On Friday I believe I have the almighty Emilie Autumn gig =D
Jim goes on his first holiday on Saturday, which sucks =( I’m gunna be bored off my face.
Any-hoo I have purchased the Sims University, and plan on pplaying that for the rest of the day, and by day I mean month.
xxxx
Hide and Seek
Damn, that’s a great song. It’s almost hypnotic and I think it just describes how I am at the moment.
This might be quite a boring post, so I apologise. But I just feel really, not emotional but like that. I just had a weird day yesterday and that feeling has carried on from to today and I just feel sick to stomach. It’s harder to let go of than I realised. There are still a million questions that I want to ask and can’t quite find it in my heart to mention.
I realised that I have a very nasty regret too, one that I hadn’t fully realised until I had a conversation that kind of, brought it back to me. It was a horrible thought, so alas, I’m on a downer, but I intend to get drunk on Friday … care to join me?
Anyway, I want to apologise to someonne and I hope they know who they are, but I can’t let it go just yet.
xxxx
Ache
So, the mental month that was June has now passed. Tot hat , I give a huge sigh of relief.
The only thing I have to plan now is my photography session at school on the 7th July, for which I think I need another assistant as Jim has CAD, and I deem itu nfair to keep him from it.
So,please tell me if you want to come help me out on the 7th, it would be most appreciated. I might even pay you ^^.
I can calm down a lot now, but I feel my blood pressure is high as I keep getitng head rushes just by being sat down. I have a feew more helth worries but nevermind.
I’m now waiting for the prom photos to be up =D I can’t wait. xxxxxx
