Ok, a little different from the previous title, but that’s what lifes about right? Changes. Before you run away scared, no it isn’t an omg my life is shit and everyhtings changing teenager blog. It’s a, I need to write this down for my own sake blog.

 Thinking:

I’m exhausted. Problems EVERYWHERE. I wish, just once, I’d get a suprise gift or something to take my mind off everything. I wish my life turned out like the way I daydream. I always think that, “if this was a movie, he’d of done this by now, and she would’ve said this instead of that” but it never happens. I just wish people could think more like me or atleast more like the movies. I wish sometimes I didn’t have to hint people to say thank you or whatever. I wish I could stop wishing and just have things happen nicely.

It’s complicated, the same things go round and round in my head but if I keep repeating them, I’m sure to just dig myself a hole and stay in it for the rest of my life.  I google things to see what other people have done in certain situations, and it always comes up with dream answer, but I know stuff like that wont happen, so again, I start wishing.

I just like to feel appreciated and loved, and it’s weird, I’m not a very materialistic person, but sometimes, objects are they way to make me feel like that.  Sounds stupid I know, BELIEVE ME, I know.

 Anyway, other than that I’m not htinking straight atall, my overactive imagination is making me think horrible things about intimate moments, and I can’t make it stop. >.<

Feeling:

Worthless, fat, ugly, annoying, complaining too much, ungrateful, pathetic.

That kinda thing.

It’s ridiculous being me sometimes. I just can’t stop WISHING >.<