Okay.

I don’t know why but i just want to scream and shout at you sometimes. i feel so pathetic and useless and annoying and selfish.

I dont know how many times i’ve cried in the past three days, it’s ridiculous. I just feel like you havent made it up to me yet. sometimes sorry isn’t enough, but i dont know what is.

I dont think you realise that i need you. the stuff that goes through my head is ridiculous and doesnt leave me alone and it wont because the cause of it wont leave.

I fuckign hate feeling this way and I dont deserve to, i deserve to have people look after me once in a while, when I need it. when things arent going right for ME i think I deserve this selfish indulgence.

I get so ill over worrying about things, and you say ‘dont worry’ or ;stop worrying’ well it REALLY ISNT THAT SIMPLE.

I want to rip her apart for what she’s done to me and most of all US.

I want to be with you every moment I have free so that I know I’m notlosing it and this bond isnt getting weaker. I need that reassurance, and fucking hell god knows I try to keep my mind off things but then it just doesnt work sometimes and I feel I’ve let you off far too easy.

i never thought id say this but … i dont trust you yet.

FOR FUCKS SAKE.

I thought it’d be fun to see my retard rantings again, so I looked through them, much to my ammusment and sadness.

I came acroos my new years resolutions:

1. Lose 10 pounds.
2. Succeed in school.
3. GET A FUCKING JOB!
4. Get a puppy.
5. Try not to fuck up this year.
6. Concentrate on the important things.
7. Organisation.

Glad to tell you I’ve done numbers 2,3 and 4 =D

Keep on rocking.

x

So I got bored and sloganed my name on thesurrealist.

Here are what I consider to be, the best =D

• “Devon knows how they make Caley so creamy”
• “It takes a tough man to make a tender Caley”
• “How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Caley?”
• “WOW! I could have had a Caley!”
• “Theres more than one way to eat a Caley”
• “What’s in your Caley?”
• “Can’t do it in real life? Do it on Caley”
• “Fill it to the rim with Caley”
• “Go on, get your Caley out”
• “Let your fingers do the walking through Caley”
• “When you’ve got Caley, flaunt it”
• “How do you eat YOUR Caley!?”
• “Caley is what we do”
• “Life should taste as good as Caley”
• “Don’t you just love being in Caley?”
• “Sweet as the moment when the Caley went ‘Pop!’”
• “This is not your fathers Caley”
• “Melts in your Caley, not in your hand”
• “The Caley for all ages”
• “The cream of Caley”
• “Caley – It looks good on you”
• “Step into the Caley”
• “I like the Caley in you”
• “Reach out and touch Caley”
• “Just do Caley”
• “Have Caley your way”
• “Gee, your Caley smells terrific”
• “Maybe she’s born with, maybe it’s Caley”
• “please don’t squeeze the Caley”
• “Is Caley in you?”
• “Happiness is Caley-shaped”
• “Caley really satisfies”

 So as you can see, I’ve picked the dirty ones and made them dirtier in my head.

ENJOY =D

xxx

CALEY AM ARE HAVE STARTED COLLEGE AND IT’S GOOD.

SHE LOST WEIGHT.

EARNED MONIES.

WON HER BOYFRIEND.

CALEY FTW =D