Okay.

I don’t know why but i just want to scream and shout at you sometimes. i feel so pathetic and useless and annoying and selfish.

I dont know how many times i’ve cried in the past three days, it’s ridiculous. I just feel like you havent made it up to me yet. sometimes sorry isn’t enough, but i dont know what is.

I dont think you realise that i need you. the stuff that goes through my head is ridiculous and doesnt leave me alone and it wont because the cause of it wont leave.

I fuckign hate feeling this way and I dont deserve to, i deserve to have people look after me once in a while, when I need it. when things arent going right for ME i think I deserve this selfish indulgence.

I get so ill over worrying about things, and you say ‘dont worry’ or ;stop worrying’ well it REALLY ISNT THAT SIMPLE.

I want to rip her apart for what she’s done to me and most of all US.

I want to be with you every moment I have free so that I know I’m notlosing it and this bond isnt getting weaker. I need that reassurance, and fucking hell god knows I try to keep my mind off things but then it just doesnt work sometimes and I feel I’ve let you off far too easy.

i never thought id say this but … i dont trust you yet.

FOR FUCKS SAKE.