I found an oldie

December 17, 2007 at 9:19 pm (Life)

Just looking through my old files and found a sort of poemy rambling for a couple of months ago.It doesn’t have a title.

I yelled and screamed and cried

But I don’t think that even enough

I don’t know why but I have a feeling

That for years this will be in my head

You’ve apologised

And I may well forgive you

But my heart will take time to repair

You’ve got so much making up to do

To show me how much you care.

What is it that she had that I don’t?

Why is it men have NO control?

Why is it that I let you off so easy?

Why is it that I am SO fucking scared?

EverydayEvery second

Every waking fucking hour

That I won’t be able to trust you

Why do I have to suffer like this?

Why do I have to cry?

Why do I have to apologise for having a go

I know you’ve apologised

But sometimesIt isn’t enough

I need to KNOW imp most important

I need to SEE it coming from you

I feel so pathetic when I think of what has been said

Why don’t you seem proud to be mining instead?

Why don’t you show me off like I do to you?

Am I not acceptable?

Am I not enough?

Am I not her?

Sometimes little surprises would be nice

Sometimes a little initiative would be too

Sometimes I hate knowing you even KNOW other girls

But damnit I can’t not love you. 

hahahaha shoddy emo rambling that doesnt even have a rhyme scheme =D

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