A few worries, i like to write them down so I can look over them again and see what a fool I’ve been.

I’m pretty sure i should be able to trust a little more now, but the world seems to think otherwise.

I get randomly moody and emotional if i see a stupid film about love. Everything just leads back to the way i felt, and my hands sweat, my heart races, i want to cry, i go quiet, and I say “nuh, I’m fine”.

it happens innapropriatley. it happens suddenly. i have actually let ‘that’ go. but the feeling is still in my heart, that i can’t trust. that i’m gunna loose something here, and i’m gunna breakdown.

I’ve been a slave to my emotions for … 7 months now. i hate this me. everyone should hate this me. i just wish i could angrilly get rid of all that is pent up.

i hate women. i hate men.

i hate how men treat women like meat, i hate how women allow it.

the world sickens me, yet i am a part of this.

but i’m not like alll the women, i dont gorp at men on adverts. i found one man. i’ve never looked at another.

i hate feeling like this. typical woman venting in words.

i hate the fact i love him so much anytime he loooks/thinks/talks about another woman, i feel physically sick.

i want to take all females away from him, invade his computer and delete anything female that isnt me.

i just. cant. trust at the moment,

one day, i’ll find out whats wrong with me.