I’ve decided i am new psychological disorder, in human form.

I’m trying to think of something nice and special to do for my 18th (other than the obvious party).

I cant think of anything. anything affordable anyhow.

on one hand i think “nuh, i dont desrve a special day alll about me, why the fuck would anyone want to do that”

but on the other “wow, i fucking deserve to be spoilt and suprised after what i do for everyone else.”

my perfect party just, wont, happen. due to expenses and i dont know any venues.

i dont know what i want to do everyone else knows me, so maybe they’d come up with some good ideas, but no.

obviously im not that special =(

*sits on the floor and drinks tea for her 18th*