I am running Race For Life this year in honour o fmy extremley brave aunt and dearly missed missed nan and if people could sponsor me to help this extremley worthy cause it would mean the world, you never know, it could save your life one day

http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/caleymackinnon

Many thanks

xxx

I am a tired person.

Tired of this routine, this repetition, this dumb boring life I lead.

I want to know what it is I seem to have lost, where has my spark gone? My lust for life?

I cannot stand hearing the same things over and over again, I cannot stand the feeling that I’m fading into the background when I know I can shine through and be one of the stars.

Why do people have to mess me around and cause me grief I do not need!

Why can’t I fall in love again, or something nice like that? I feel like I am slowly drowning in this place and the one chance I get to escpae its clutches, I get really far, and then lose it.

I am not okay with waking up every morning knowing I have nothing to do all day because my job hasn’t phoned me yet. I am not okay with being told to get a job, when I have 2. I am not okay with people asking me about money all the time. I am not okay with looking in the mirror and being unhappy with the reflection, but not having the self control to do something about it. I am not okay with knowing I will probably waste away in this stupid town.

If I could just get on with my 2nd job already, or find some lovely man who’s lovely, or get a successful college audition, or come into a large sum of money. I think then i’d be ok.

I don’t like what’s happening to me.

I want it to stop.

I want the chances I know I wont get

I hate that I still can’t get this one person out of my head, and I know it’ll drive me mad one day.

I just want to cry. Break down completley and cry.