Probably one of the toughest years so far. Things were lost, things were gained. Hearts were broken, and they may not yet be fixed, but they’re trying.

I started the year with Jim, and luckily ended the year with Jim. However much I thought I’d scare him away over the year ^^ I swear the man is insane to stay with me considering how unstable and angry I  can get =]

The mock exams happened, i failed, miserably. However when i worked a little harder during study leave, to get into AY College, I got the grades and left the Floyd =( Which has upset me, more than some people might think. So I’ve become a college student and am doing alreet.

I had no holidays in 2007, which would explain a lot of pent up anger and stress and illness. I had no time to be away from everything that seemed to spiral downwards out of my control. So I suffer through it =]

I made new friends, which I never thought I would do. Crazy ^^ I gained and lost a job (not fired, the shop closed) and work experience! So I back to the old unemployed me. Yay?

Things from 2007 will always stay with me, I don’t know why, it was just an epic year full of so much happening so fast. So many changes I just can’t really believe it. I’m amazed that I’m still (slightly) sane.

• Started the year with nans funeral (never a good start)
• Failed my mocks
• Pissed around for my final time at the Floyd to make the most of it
• Did OK in my GCSES
• Summer Holidays, quite a bit without Jim who went on 2 holidays =(
• Jim then moved to Cambridge
• I went to visit and almost died =]
• Hit a really low patch towards the end of the year tbh
• I started Beauty Therapy
• I turned 17
• It was Christmas =D I got monies and Jim
• I learned a LOT about myself, but I’m still trying to avoid some points in my head =] For every-ones sake.

So we came to the end of the year, and began a new, still as confused as ever, still scared of what has happened, what might happen, and what inevitably will happen.

 It’s so tiring being human.

Happy New Year.

So much has happened and so much has changed.

My borthday was fantastic, thank you so much to everyone who came.

Friday- Night out with the girls and night in with Jim.

Saturday- Party. But thats when everything happened.

My dog slipped a disk at my party and she was paralysed.

My mumtook her to the vets on sunday morning again, Jim and Lloyd were the only people left in the house by the time she got back.

I heard her come back, she came up to my rom where I was cleaning up the party.

She told me my dog had to be put down.

she was gone.

I screamed.

Screamed and cried in disbelief. I was MORTIFIED.

I still refuse to believe it now.

then seein the woman in black the day after that happening didnt help my mental state.

So I thought I’d let you all know that I am an emotional WRECK.

I made a video tribute to her today, and it’s on my myspace.

Thankyou to everyone who is supporting me currently.

xxx